realise

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..realise..
i realise it!!~
i don wan to noe..
wad m i thinking..
i realise it!!~
everything gone...
GONE!!~T.T

i dont wan...
i try to give up
i try but i noe i cant...
i dunno wad m i thinking..
keep on asking myself~~
really sorry for that...

sorry...
for everything i have done!~
i dunno the relationship..
can be so short..
and no longer!!~T.T

i just wanna tell u the truth!!~
that is what i noe...
and not to hurt u...
but it hurt me hardly!!~

im disappointed..
to myself and also...
y0u..
i dun even noe..
u can just dun care bout it~
after i told u...
it hurt me again!!~

i dunno are u,
pReTenD-inG?
OR
im jUsT a tiny star in ur heart?
i dunno...

i knew it...
thats me..
im stupid!!~
many things make me more complicated...
many more...
its not easy for me to hold...
its heavy!!T.T
hope u understand!

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useless...T.T

i am useless...T.T
i cant help my friends...
im worry about u now...
im not dare to be ur best friend...
i wanna help u...fellow fren...
but i cant!!~u.u

i can just advice u...
dun think so much...
i din ever see u suffering bfore untill like this
i had just seen it today...
just like the earth is ending!!~
today today and today...
i can saw it...u have no choice...
u was wondering...

hey gals!!~
wake up wake up...
u are in the earth now...
is time to wake u up...
that's just a dream...
unforgetable dream...
that's nothing...dont care too much
hey,u are strong...right?
i knew it...

me and ying will awaz support u...
ur decision...
that's ur choice...
u have choose it...
must try to solve it!!~
and not to suffer for this...
dump it...!!~

i know is hard to dump it..
that's not easy...
but just try...
try to dump all the suffering n wondering!!~

[heY...u aRe stRonG!!~]

[u aRe tHe 0ne!!~]

[u caN s0lve iT!!~]

l0rv?

whatever..
everything change to be strange..
that's what i feel..
really!~

i dont understand what i know..
i start to confuse..
confuse who am i..

i missing you,
and dont know where you are..
i feel lost,
dont know where to find back myself and you..

i dont understand what i think..
it make me feel so wrong..
that's not me!!~

you are not standing in my way..
you dont understand what i know..
just try to ignore it!
but that's not easy..

when u find~
where's my heart..
i'm really missing you..
make me wanna know where you are...
but it is just too late!!

```tRy-inG t0 miSs yOu!!```

```tRy-inG t0 noE yOu moRe!!```

```tRy-ing t0 ignoRe iT!!```

that's not what i want...it's compliacted!!~

start to become alone!!~

pretend happii in front of u?

*yes*

but i'm not!!

ScaRy anD hapPy daY^^

whew...back from skol...today i went to audition...quiet scary actually...x.x...
hmmm....i get some experiences although i dint get into another audition...
i will take part again next year...quite interesting and fun...heh heh...
when i was singing in the seminar...really feel like i was singing in the
real american idol...hahaha...jkjk...of course i will feel abit sad,cause i dint
get in...but i will get more confidence to take part next time cause teacher
said that my sound not bad...i feel happy...kakaz...besides that,after
audition...me and my damn frens go metro and play bowling again...
haha...this time im not 'longkang queen'...heh heh...i get low marks
when the first round...but i improved it when its second round...quiet high
...haha...after home...i told my mom and dad that i cant get in...
but they asked me to try again next year...whoo whoo....
[my mom laughed]omg...n_n...however,this day is quiet
interesting for me...heh heh...



ooch!!~pain lar....n_n...[seuk jia and nana]

I neeD y0u...

Haix..so boring when staying at home alone..why people scare alone

actually?a bit curious..x.x..cause of GHOST?hmm..I know I scare

alone..my house is always full of empty..no one at home always..

make me SCARE!!~I try to keep on doing things but not work..

still feel alone de ler..whew..no one chat to..so I always online de..

do some people agree that when u feel alone, u need a person to care

u n teman u?and you will need love too?curious..x.x..I think if u feel

not caring by ur parents u feel really alone..cause they always go

oversea to work for us and go here go there..izit that way to work

more money for their children?some1 told me and say that "u still

have ur sisters and brother"..but I think I am NOT!!~I din see my

sister always, cause she always go oversea too..working working

working..they are not enjoying their life..I know..they are very

stress..my whole family are stressful and bz-ing their things always

..omg..u.u..alone..need some1..love..I dont understand..

confusing feeling..

[alone...dont u scare alone?]

SCARE!!~

[need some1...dont u need some1 when u are alone?]

[love...do u need some1 to love u when u are alone?]

[can u stay alone by yourselves the whole life?]

CANNOT!!~

I know I need you always..I hate "lonely" this word!!~I don’t

like the feeling [lonely]..do u know I really need you actually?

Can u answer me pls!!~oh Gosh!!~x.x~I need you..I want you..

I miss you!!~^8^~

Hihi^^write blog again le...feel a bit relax after exam...

but still feel not really relax at all...when I was exam I try

to dont think bout it so now have 1 week time for me to think

this damn prefect resign thing...u.u... 'STUPID CAT' dont let

me resign...my friend all ask me to bring my parent and argue

with the stupid CAT...but...i scare to disturb my parent anyway...

they havent come back from oversea then...nini and ooi ooi will

change back normal uniform after holiday...how bout me?...=(...

wait for suitable time ar?i really scare to change uniform alone...

they can change in same time…but me?i hope that principle can

help me...omg...scare no use also although my parent come to

school...I need help!!~I feel that im unlucky...but anyway...

pretend to happy lo...=D…izit? What can I do?whew...u.u...

feel that little girl hor...more things to think de...heh heh...

really lar...kekex...agree mar?

[damn cat]

[damn cat]

[damn cat]

=P...CAT!!~

but however...exam over...heh heh...after exam,me and my frens

go play bowling..kakax..play till so tired....imagine how crazy when

exam...keep on study...and how happy when playing bowling...but

tired...heh heh...BUT...omg...all longkang de...hahaha...but happy

then can edi lo hor?try to forget all the bad things...really feel quite

happy that day...=P...after played bowling, i still wanna go home

and practice my piano...piano class man!!~oh man...^^...TIRED

but HAPPY...pretend happy or real happy better?har?real right?

...u.u...support support support...=P