My story

Hi people,

Hope this song brings peace to you, and once again reminds us He is faithful, merciful and for us. 

This song inspires me, and to tell you my story and have hope even in the worst situation, because your worst day may be someone's best day. 

Everyone has this time when we feel restless, exhausted, depressed, tough and everything just did not go in favor to us. And we always ask, God why. One thing I could be sure of, He is always for us, through my toughest time, He was there for me. And we always ask, God how could this just happened to me. One thing I could be sure of, through my toughest time, He brought people into my life, to encourage me, strengthen me and always be reminded He is a never failing God, He is our hope and always will be. 

It has been a year and seven months since I had the toughest time of my life. It was one that I'd never ever thought that it could happen to my closest, my mom. It was beginning of last year, I had everything and the best things in my life, time when everything went well until mom started complaining about her back pain that she never had before. We did not take it seriously and thought it was just a normal back pain, went for therapist for couple of months and it didn't help. Therapist advised for a CT Scan and blood test. After several days, the results came out, my mom has a lung cancer, it was advanced stage and cancerous cells spread throughout the bones. I was helpless, I was broken down, my entire family was. And I questioned God, why does it need to be my mom, why not me. We were broken down and in depression. I was worried, I was scared, the fear of losing someone so close to your heart, fear of not having her accepting Jesus Christ as her Saviour yet. 

Thank God I had everyone around me, friends and churches, to encourage me, to pray for mom. It was the toughest time, but His strengths held me up high and told me to stay strong, to hope for miracles, to lift the entire situation into His hands, surrender. I had youth group one friday night, we were praying for my mom and that was when God gave me this thought and told me "Your mom will be healed and your parents will come to know Christ, soon"I was shocked and told my pastor about this. Through the toughest situation, He had given me hope. 

And I was told to share a testimony about never giving up and holding on to God. I wouldn't know the end result, but I know He always have the best for us, build us and strengthen us. After having God planted that thought in me, one morning when mom was lying on the bed, seeing the pain she was having, I asked: Mom, can I pray for you? She said: Yes. After the prayer, mom was touched and that was the beginning of everything, Mom started to know God more. Pastors and friends came and prayed for mom and told her about Jesus. Mom had vision about God telling her the passage from the bible even when she had not yet read the bible with a voice that is higher than everything else, a voice that couldn't be described by just words "Do not fear for I'm with you". Mom told us about the vision and immediately few days later my parents came to know Christ and accepted Him as Saviour and King. Not long after, Mom had another vision of God telling her, her lung is cleared. 

After a day or two, mom went for check ups and chemotherapy. Check up results came out, my mom's lung is totally cleared. Everyone was amazed and knowing that God just works in ways that we can't comprehend. We hugged we rejoice and burst into tears. 

Mom is still going through times of her life, going through follow ups and chemotherapies to remove the remaining cancerous cells from the bones and etc. She still needs prayers :)

Prayers are powerful, for every prayer we prayed, He heard us. One thing, He has the best plans for us and He works in ways that we cannot comprehend. 

Sometimes things just happened to discourage us, to pull us down to the very bottom of our lives, but don't give up, because He is for us, who can stand against us and what can stand against? He showed me He is the one true God, but by faith that we trust in Him. He works miraculously and powerfully. It is not a religion, it is a relationship and a connection with God. 

Hope this brings hope and reminds you once again, how amazing God is. For everything that happen, it happens for a reason. He is the reason we live. He brings us hope, love and life. 

Cheers,

:) 

Get Smart Conference 2012

Hello,

Yes, I'm back from conference just a few days ago and sadly started uni yesterday aw. The conference indeed brightened my eyes seeing so many young people fired up for God, it was way more than just amazing :) But truly, the one week conference had relived me in such a way I've never expected, spiritually led and not anymore living a life aimlessly, had a calling from God to do what is to be done, I felt such a relief, such a joy to know what He has in my life, for real. 

Jesus be the centre of it all. This song, made me realize, He knows it all.

After the conference, seeing everyone so pump up for Jesus, put a smile on my face :) I have a good news a way too good awesome wonderful news teeheeeee. I'm going Hillsong Conference in Sydney next July, roar! I've bought the ticket with few of my friends and yes my next travel destination to Sydney, Australia is going to be amazing and exciting, always having a dream to go Hillsong Conference now it really comes true! Rejoice! 

For those who wants to sign up for Hillsong Conference too, click this! Hillsong Conference 2013

Here are some photos of the conference Get Smart that were taken from #GSfbpage.

1500 of us in one location, having the same conference at 3 different locations at the same time, Auckland, Nelson and Dunedin, a crowd of people! :)

Loves.

Get Smart

Time's counting down &

IM SO EXCITED SO EXCITED.

LOOKING FORWARD TO THE CONFERENCE.for 4 days

Can't wait to Get Smart. 

Can't wait to encounter Him.

#start in six hours time.

Your time

You know, the time that you feel ultimately miserable, not knowing what will happen next, being discouraged with the things that were totally fine, and now that it pulls you down, now that you try to get over with these by not having yourself alone in the room but hanging with friends until late night making sure that you're able to sleep instantly after getting home, having friends to hug you listening to your problems, tear with you when they hear you, I feel so much appreciated.

Time when you feel upset with things, get over it with some jogs listening to songs, started worshipping, seek Him throughout the time, not just, but praising Him even when tough times knock on us, thanking Him for given us the opportunity to come across things that have upset us at the same time out paid a little sweetness, given us what we've always wanted.

Time when you question God why it happens, what's His call, why are things not get right on track. You're wrong, because it would have been worse without Him. Time when you have yourself proud thinking that you're good enough, you're wrong, because without Him, you'd not have been going this far. Time when you think you're weak and not capable of doing greater things, you're wrong, because through Him, nothing is impossible. Time when you think there is no miracle, you're wrong, because staying alive is already a miracle. Time when you say you don't need God, you're wrong, because you're lying to yourself and having fear deep down inside.

For everything that happens, let Him be the center of it all, like how the gravity holds us to the ground of the earth, the center of it all.

Tell you how was my week.

Back again, yes am gonna tell how was my week going these days. Just so I've chose my foundation year in Sunway, Australian Matriculation, currently have been really stress up coping with assessments and assignments which I've never expected it to be so a lotttt. Still, thank God the week has finally ended, it's Saturday (: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, every single day, assessments. Nah, who says it's honeymoon in college.

Its kinda a hectic week for me, it's also an awesome week though. Listen, salvation had finally brought to my mum and it was really a testimony to show how God actually works in one's life, it's amazing. It was a Tuesday, 26th of April, how amazing God is huh? I've never expected it to be so soon but I knew its gonna be really soon. God showed me everything is possible, you can never predict how God works and plans! He has His plan for each of us :) Now, let's pray for my dad for his salvation. I know it's gonna be very soon, just so you know, you wouldn't know how God works. 

Listening to daughters- John Mayer 

Pray for my dad who's having high fever now, pray for salvation and touch from God.

Pray for my mum for His healing power upon her, continue to keep her faith in God.

Pray for my family.

 Praise Him

Ciaos, loves :)

Soon

Recently, have been into facebook and twitter very frequently, and what I've came to realize is most of the pictures that "we" uploaded as profile picture are always pictures with joy, happiness, smiley faces but never a picture with sorrow, never a sadden one, even me; myself. It's simply like one who's trying to hide feelings, sorrows from the world.

Currently listening to "soon- hillsong united"

Soon and very soon
My King is coming
Robed in righteousness
And crowned with love
When I see Him, I shall be made like Him
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
I'll be going to the place He has prepared for me
Then my sin erased, my shame forgotten
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
See the procession
The angels and the elders round the throne
At His feet I'll lay
My crowns, my worship
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Though I have not seen Him
My heart knows Him well
Jesus Christ the Lamb, the Lord of heaven

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon
Soon and very soon
Soon and very soon

I just gonna say, God always use different ways to comfort, to prepare us for a harder task, prepare us for the battle. My mum who is now feeling confused, insecure, really need prayers, most importantly, she needs salvation. My mum went to Singapore to get a third opinion and had confirmed that it's lung cancer. She had just did chemotherapy in Singapore and on their way back to Malaysia. I believe y'all will definitely shock by what am telling now what am encountering now. This is really a hard time for my family, a trial for each member of my family. We cry, we pray, we do everything else that we can do, try our best to do what we can and spend time with the family. Everyone faces trials, most importantly is how we encounter them, how we gonna fight the battle. I trust my God our Father, He has bring us to the world, well He surely will bring us back with Him, He has a reason for everything and all of us belong to Him. I wouldn't blame what's happening now to my family but I will put Him in the picture, in the whole structure of life. 

Soon.

Loves.

Pray.

I don't know what's on my head, what's spinning around, what's on my mind, literally. I don't know what am I supposed to do, what else I can actually do. Listening to "take all of me- hillsong united" and one of the phrases "  I love you, all of my hope is in you, Jesus Christ take my life take all of me." What am facing now is putting me in a really heavy-hearted moment, sometimes I may think why it wasn't me why not take me instead, they need salvation, they're in need, they need You; but I do not ponder, I know You will have better plans for my family and I, I always know that You will have better plans for us, why do I still weep, cry, sorrow. Had watched a movie tonight "Just go with it", it wasn't a bad show but well through this show it took me one and a half hour to think, to really think what's next, what's more to come, thinking how's mom thinking what's gonna happen next, and eyes were in tears. I was totally black out, broke down, fear, need so a lot of comforts, need someone to talk to, to encourage, to give a big huge hug. No one knows how am feeling now, but I as well wouldn't know how exactly my mom's feeling right now, burden, fear, confuse, depress, stress. I know God is eternity God is powerful God is loved God is able, therefore, I can do everything through Him who gives me strength, because all I need is You.

Let's continue to pray for my mom, let's pray for healing and salvation.

Pray for my dad, pray for peace and mercy, pray for salvation.

Pray for my brother, pray for salvation, pray for a softened heart.

Pray for both of my sisters, pray for understanding, pray that through Christ, they are strengthened.

Pray for Japan, pray for God's mercy, God is still in control.

Prayers.

loves.

Sneeze to the max :D

Again, have neglected this place. My last post I posted was in January, three months and now April :) Some even asked am I gonna stop blogging and delete it for good, but well NO. Yes, I've been going through a lot of things these months, going on hectic college days, no full-stop for tests and assignments, some things seem not too good in the family and there are just so a lot that you couldn't even imagine. 

So yeah now stories start.

Past few weeks ago "not too good" things started to come and yes it was on a Monday. On this particular Monday morning, I almost bang a car which had a sudden stop in front of me. Next, it was so jam on the way to college and I went into the motor way ( true enough it was my fault ), I've gotten a summon from the most responsible police I've seen in my life. Reached college, stepped on chewing gum at the garden. In class, got called as refugee by not finishing my classwork, cruel thing I wasn't in the class and what makes you think I know there's supposed to have classwork to finish up? Oh well, and when I was to go home, my car spoiled! I couldn't open the car door both with car key and the controller, and lastly I found out that I did not off the car lights and hooray, I ran to the workshop asked for a jump-start. When I was half-way running, *storm* and rain came down! Lastly, yes did a successful jump-start to my car and my sister drove me back from coll just in case I bang car. Laugh-out loud lah I know it was really a bad day. BUT, thank God I'm still alive. 

Second one was I had gotten sick on the second day, sneeze for Idk around 100 times? :) and fever as well, went to a doctor. Few days later, it didn't turn well and went to a doctor for a second time. One day after, asthma attack and admitted to the hospital on Saturday night at KPJ for hours and they suspected me to be H1N1 or dengue, whew thank God I wasn't after testing blood and ended up I went home. Skipped church on Sunday and I was thought that I'm already fine. Well, admitted to glen eagles on Sunday afternoon causing by asthma attack and after I did my check-ups and stuffs, the doctor found out that it wasn't an asthma attack instead, it was bronchitis and that's way my ventilate puff wasn't helping. Well being discharged on Wednesday. Gonna give a big huge hug to my friends who had surprised me in the hospital and to those who visited me when I was about to die from boredom. Hehe :)

So happening, after I got discharged from glen eagles, my mom health report was out and it wasn't a good one. For few days my mom was in the hospital doing A LOT of check-ups which I can see my mom was really in pain. To be true, my mom needs prayers, we really need prayers, she has gotten a really bad disease which my family couldn't really take it. For now, we looked fine but from the inside I know everyone's hurting. Prayers are powerful this is what I really trusted and trusting that God can do miracle, He has the ability to do everything, literally. So let's keep my mom and my family in prayers, pray for miracles to happen, pray for grace and mercy, pray for peace in my mom.

Although that many things seem not really good, hair-wire here and there, but there are still things to praise God for. You would never know how God has encouraged me these days, His prayers are truly powerful, He never fails us and this is true. He sent his people to encourage to comfort me. Thanks to my relatives to my loved one to my college mates to my church members to pastors and leaders, thanks a lot. Well, I believe that everyone has problems everyone has bad times so do I. So let's keep praising God, keep the faith.

 

Prayers are really needed.

Thanks loves! :)

 

Done. 

This is Christ.

Last night, had a gathering with the cell members and had fellowships, worshiping and prayers together which was an awesome companies since we had no cell group yesterday night. I've been told about a video or two of Louie Giglio by our cell leader. One of the videos was about God's grace and a beautiful touching story about a girl named Ashley, who came across a lot of stuffs and fell in love with our God Saviour 5 months before she died in a car accident. For more of her stories, google "Ashley Akinns by Louie Giglio".

I've brought home another video, it was Louie Giglio's message on the "How Great Is Our God" talk about galaxies, the universe and human body. 

This is the center of a black hole in a galaxy millions of light years from Earth. There is an image located in the center of the black hole, isn't that a symbol of cross, Christ? Yes it is. How amazing God is that He created the Heavens and the Earth? God created the stars, the galaxies, the universe! (:

Something which have really blown me off was Laminin, protein of our human body which holds our body together. From the bible, in Colossians 1:17 says: He is before all things and in Him all things are hold together. Louie Giglio showed us how laminin looks like and everyone was WHOAAAA!!! So, let's see how amazing it is! :) 

This is LAMININ of our human body! 

Christ holds us together, and yes it seems really true true true! :) So, what doubt you to not know Christ?

Loves,

the writer =]

I'm done (:

I'm done (: yea with literally everything I would say.

lotta things happened and thank God everything is still in control, thank God for giving me right things in right times, right solutions. Even when he takes away little things from me, I'm still to be grateful, at least I had experienced and learned the little things and what they actually mean about, He always has better plan for everyone. (: I thank God, He holds me, the little me.

Sunday, July 04, 2010

Sunday, another Sunday, but it's a different Sunday today...

A refreshment (:

Just got back from church camp :) It's a refreshment.

The camp was turned up so awesomely fun and powerful! We had our church camp at Kuantan, what the resort called ya? hehehe forgot. What I know was I've bitten by the bed bugs eww is damn itchy! I forced to wake up in the midnight and ya it has swollen somehow, do pray for me from recovering yea! Anyway, I'm inspired by the youth committees, really! They did really great job (: How awesome was it? Yea, the Holy spirit was flowing in the room and was so powerful which had touched many lives. I prayed and asked God to do miracles, to prove His presence, fill and renew me, He answered my prayer, He really did. What I experienced was immediately I cried when I came into the room, the flowing was so very powerful! Even when preaching He's already there, the same thing happened to me, ya kinda weird but God can do things in many ways, isn't it? Have no idea how to describe but God really did wonderful things in our lives :) 

went to the water park of the resort with the gang and somehow I felt that God has given me companies, great fellowship with them like never before. We played, eat, crapped (: together, even sleep. We were wishing to play longer at the water park! We even had our fellowship at the pool before we sleep, lied down watching the stars, had snacks at the pool side, chat laughed, sing in the room etc. Hahaha!

Be thankful for everything la! :))) 

The camp was like a dream, but it wasn't, it's a miracle! ♥

4th of April, 2010

EASTER DAYY IS TODAY!!!

Today is Easter Day. :))

Well, everyone was pretty excited and waited this day to come, so do I. (: So very short one, but yet a powerful one? I have no idea whatsoever but would be sharing this short testimony it happened to me this morning! Not everyone knows, I've got fever and sore throat last night, this morning indeed. This morning I woke up it didn't get better and I was dead worrying because I have choir at church today. Till then, I told the worship leader my situation and there we prayed, it wasn't a long prayer but yet it was a powerful one I guess. When we start our worship, my throat has gone really right and you know, just got healed! It's amazing, really! You wouldn't know how real is it until miracle happens and experience by you yourselves. God heard our prayers and He is always with us!     
     

Thank God :)))))  Chaos and see ya. 
     

YOU

YOU JUST INSPIRED ME!

FOR WHO YOU ARE, WHAT YOU DO, WHAT YOU THINK, WHAT YOU SAY! 

ARE WAYS JUST TOO AWESOME!!

All things I want.

Hey people, just yea by the way gotta make it a Happy Chinese New Year to y'all.

Stay bright and bloom like a flower ♥ :)

God will never forsake, and we should not forsake Him. ♥

God loves us, and we should love Him inside out. 

every single thing, He is still in control.

For He is still with us, we fear not.

Not to worry, not to afraid.

For He is taking care of us now and always. :) 

we sinned, but He forgive.

He teaches us to love, but not hate. 

God is eternity. 

Pray & Praise.

♥ 

Whenever you are out left, depress, He holds you!

Whenever you pray, he answers you. Yes? No? or Later? Soon?

Trust Him conpletely, not to worry.

Praise Him :) ♥

We are different, all because of Him. 

We will change, and at least we try. 

:) ♥

 

Young & Old. Stand still and Shine. =)

Continue.

Should I or should I not? In this early morning and moment like this, shall I write it more about yesterday and something similar and then?

It's just somehow our earth is the only thing makes us worry the most! Ain't it?

Is that nowadays are just too much of sins and had already overflew and we will exact to be taken up or down anyhow? In what authority should we claim this world as?

Listening to the song "mighty to save" by Hillsong United.

Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me

Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations

Chorus;
Savior he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again

I give my life to follow
Everything i believe in
Now i surrender

Savior he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

Savior he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

Shine your light and let the whole world see
Were singing for the glory of the risen king Jesus

Savior he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

It has probably touched one heart this morning. The judgment day, the rapture is coming soon or sooner, we never know when but at least we are ready for it to come! For those who are not, we should pray that He will be to judge and appear to give any second chances for everyone who not yet to know.

Human is equally to be selfish anyway, like one said "watch people die better than people watch me die lahh!" or " I thought it happens to die all but still a few left! Aiyahh" either. Don't you feel a little sour with it? Where's the maturity of ones? We are the victors but not the victims, we should love our neighbours as ourselves, love others like how God loves us! Where's all these? But still then, even me, I argued with sister and I just sometimes refuse to give any of the forgiveness! Cause they are just too much for me! I can't really get rid with these! Please give me a deep breath. And too forgive me for my jealousy D:

My previous post about the show 2012, it's not bad at all, it makes us worry and then to care and love our friends and families even more BUT only on that day I guess? It tells us to appreciate things we have and people we loved.

I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.

John 18: 23

These are just what I am grasping and they are not the exact for some of you and they never determined with true or false neither.

Be unto Him; the Victory.

2012

It's nearly 2.30 in the morning, and something just can't get off my mind while I was lying on the bed for just few hours since it was 12a.m. Well, was reading blogs randomly before I was going to bed and I intended to update my blog by tomorrow, but the movie 2012 appeared once and two into my mind. Nothing insulting me, but thinking of the inwards fear that everyone does have after this show 2012.

I was bringing out this small little topic to my dad about the end times after the movie we had and he seems to be a little of fear with it as he said he doesn't want to think it further more, we were still there to chat a little though. Somehow end times are chaotic!

Moreover, the movie seems so real with our high tech movie makers and sorts! The flood, the buildings fell, the cracks! Now and then, the topic meant by "End times" is getting more famous in the world! Have we get ready for it to come? This somehow could be annoyance for some of them as in they confidently appear to you and said it wouldn't happen! In the movie 2012, it didn't clearly appeared any of the religious or persisted it even. Does this actually makes one wonder about his/ her religion or do they actually need this?

The movie seriously may caused much of the interaction throughout years! Is this a good show? From the outward of the entire movie, it's pretty nice! But throughout the movie of all, it's too much for me. Still then 2012 is now the famous and worth show to watch indeed.

However, it's nice! But I love revelation better. (: In between them, they are slightly different but still we refer more onto bible which emphasised the same thing about end times.

Anyhow, it's 3 in the morning now and then I should really turn my lights off :)

Goodnight and sweet dreams.

Ciaoss__/ LOVE.

Stay up New Moon for next! :D 

 

Sermons and lessons

Today's sermon was about the spiritual warfare and it helps me to understand more towards spiritual stuffs. This is what something I am going through right now, and what I was worrying then. I am great right now with the fullness of God's words (: I wonder does this sermon actually presented for me. Maybe it is or it isn't. I am still trying to humble and quite down my heart and search for the goodness of God. God makes my day and I am joyful. I teared day by days and I was worrying how will my loved ones going to be without salvation, without Christ, without God. With the sermon today and the lessons last friday, my mind is now renewed with the words that God's trying to tell me. God is everywhere ♥ But there's only one God, that's called Jesus, Saviour Our Father.

I know that You're with me.

For what things that have happened to me these days, the disturbing which really annoyed me with fear, have made me strongly build up a stronger relationship with God.

I slept late on Thursday, after the happening of fear, I do had a time with God which gave me understanding, gave me strength, gave me even more wisdom. Every thought came out of my mind, the worries, the circumstances, and they took me hours to think about, literally everything. Yes, I was scared, but in the same time, I was strong enough to shout out to God in the name of Jesus. And what make up my mind now is thing that we learned through our yesterday cell, "Prayers are Powerful."

I shared with my cell last night about the things that happened within these days, the awesome thing was i could strongly felt that there's Holy Spirit around us & I believe that God has touched each and everyone of us last night. A great thanks to my cell & leaders for the prayer that I was requesting & God really made a way for me. What he does & doing, no matter what, everything that has His purpose for us, His plans that make us a way. No matter how bad the day will be, I know I'll not have any of the bad day and every single thing will literally guide by Him with His purpose for us.

The evil ones would not harm us, even if they would, they would have fears from Our God Father and the prayers that we make. God sacrificed for us, so now as we should too fight for God. Unite everyone as one with our Awesome God. No matter how bad our sin has been, He will still willing to listen to our prayers.


Like what we could read in the book of Psalm, "Yet I'm confident I will see the Lord's goodness while I'm here in the land of the living." In this life while we're going through circumstances and trials, we should have confident that in this present life, God will still see us through. His promises that he has given us are our hopes and strength and will never hurt us. " I cry out to God Most High, to God who will fulfill his purpose for me."


God's faithful help and love in times of trouble. When we face trials, God will quite our hearts and give us confidence. Every thing that we're facing, we're going through, should done by the confidence that God had given us and the prayers are all belong to Him. We should present our lives with the fullness of God's love, God's faith.


You're the one I seek.