Your time

You know, the time that you feel ultimately miserable, not knowing what will happen next, being discouraged with the things that were totally fine, and now that it pulls you down, now that you try to get over with these by not having yourself alone in the room but hanging with friends until late night making sure that you're able to sleep instantly after getting home, having friends to hug you listening to your problems, tear with you when they hear you, I feel so much appreciated.

Time when you feel upset with things, get over it with some jogs listening to songs, started worshipping, seek Him throughout the time, not just, but praising Him even when tough times knock on us, thanking Him for given us the opportunity to come across things that have upset us at the same time out paid a little sweetness, given us what we've always wanted.

Time when you question God why it happens, what's His call, why are things not get right on track. You're wrong, because it would have been worse without Him. Time when you have yourself proud thinking that you're good enough, you're wrong, because without Him, you'd not have been going this far. Time when you think you're weak and not capable of doing greater things, you're wrong, because through Him, nothing is impossible. Time when you think there is no miracle, you're wrong, because staying alive is already a miracle. Time when you say you don't need God, you're wrong, because you're lying to yourself and having fear deep down inside.

For everything that happens, let Him be the center of it all, like how the gravity holds us to the ground of the earth, the center of it all.

Time away

See my laughs? I can say, I had the best moment of laugh. Ok, this was what I found in my album when I was too bored of stuffing my brain with piles of reading. When I see this, I was thinking "problem?" hahaha. 

Okay, I give myself a five minutes break just to update a post, #toobored I'm basically trying to update as many posts as I could, not just, but something interesting, I hope. Well, since my title is "Time away", I'll be away for 2 weeks, finals on the way #nolife. 

I've been up for some online shopping and I'm looking forward to getting the parcel after my exam! ;) I've never wanted the shop for dresses online, but the designs were irresistible! If you're to shop, phatculture.com is something I'd love you to check it out. Well, I'm pretty sure the quality is under control. I've bought some dresses today, hope the shipping is efficiently organized.

Chaos, there you go. Short post ae. 

See me in two weeks time, would love to post some photos for the dresses! loves.

Loving the earrings I bought from Equip. #feather earring for NZD5. It was on promotion! Chaos :)
Oh, and it's #winter now.

A glimpse of hope

Ok, this is not something that you're gonna read. 

Hi, 

To be honest, I've not been writing an appropriate passage about what I'm up to for some time, you think so? I think, yes. After reading some of the blogs I used to follow, I came to realize that people are getting bored with blogging, and am one of those. I mean, not just get bored with it, but somehow you just feel so reckless to just blog and having little fun seeing and reading your own posts, getting some decorations up on your page, no interaction is dead. Things just get bored after the invention of 9gag, you'd rather spend your time reading those jokes than just writing how emotional you are, what have you been up to and etc. 

Ok, I'm pretty sure writing articles here are simply just writing articles, I even felt, who is possibly viewing this, have I not been just talking all alone? And there goes the invention of Facebook that creates the interaction among human beings. I must say I love writing, or should I say I love talking. Talking as in, tell others jokes, express your thoughts to others, letting others know what have you been up to and etc. You know, others, simply means that someone to talk to. 

Heh ok I think that's enough of randomness. If you're reading this, I'm gonna share this that I've seen it on twitter, a joke.

: Knock knock!: Who's there?: To: To who?: To whom...

If only you get this.

Well, what a university student do in the month of June? Party? Fun? Trips? Nooooooh, its the last step to end your first semester, finals! I've been spending my two weeks in my room excluding the groceries shopping (which is necessary), cooking meals at the kitchen. Awesome or problem? I feel like I've not been reading this much until I got here. Everything goes to 'study when you need to, have fun when you have to' I'm satisfied how I've been motivating myself all this while :)

Something that I'm even amazed about.

I had an exam two weeks ago which I had put so much effort on reading them trying to score as good as I could. The day before the exam, I was practically spending my whole day just to make sure I'm good enough to walk into the exam hall. On the exam day itself, I was just so nervous because of the prior experience of not finishing the paper, I prayed. And during the exam, I was on the verge of blanking out, I was just having a tough time and at last, I didn't manage to finish few of the questions. I came outta the exam hall, I was emotionless, was thinking if that could be me overworking for the course or I was just not capable enough to do the paper. An A+ is far gone. I was questioning God why, but then, I was just hoping for a PASS. The result was out a few days ago, and I was aiming for a Just Pass. You'll never know how I felt when see my result, a glimpse of hope, I've gotten an A-. I was jumping, dancing, calling my parents telling them how I feel and how God had amazed me. I know this is not the effort I've put alone, but He who helped me through. He is the glimmer of hope. :) And the flashbacks of me crying on the table having a pizza, it put a smile on my face, because, everything is worth the price.

If you've read until this point. I thank you! :D

See you guys after finals! I've have to find a job too, prayers needed. Ciaos
Greater Him; Lesser Us! Loves.

The lovers.

That was a day to remember. Because I've found love. No hurts, no pain. But something that aches your heart was that, you're gonna go. #Appreciate what you've left to encounter, appreciate every moment like there's no tomorrow, because, every second is already a gift from Him, our God. No tears, no sorrows. 

Thanks for the memories, dear. He has placed you in my life, bringing the blessings of love. 

The closests until the end of our lives. No boundaries, this is love. We have found ourselves after we met.

It's a blessing to have you. That came a love story, that color the rest of my life.

The ones that helped me through my very phase of life, the ones to have fun with & no regrets. I'm so thankful. 

We had have each other, we fight against time. Limited time together didn't stop us being together. They sprinkles the fun in the picture of my life.

We eat, we talk, we grew together physically, spiritually. (: God brought them here so we could grow together in the family of Christ.

The crazies that I'll be missing of. They are naturally grown fun, the sleepless memories with them was indeed putting a smile on my face (:

The blessing of life. We worship, we serve, the only reason is & always is, our God.

Picture is blur, mind is clear. Heart to heart, never gonna change.

A girl that God has just brought into my life, we share our thoughts our hearts. A blessing that can count on. I'm blessed, so much of love.

 She provides thoughts, hugs, prayers. She is another one that has placed to guide me through my walk in Christ. We have each other.

My childhood, my friends. Thank you :)

And most importantly, I have them. The givers, the providers, the lovers. My family. ♥

Thank God for them ♥

♥♥♥

Stay strong, whatever happened, it surely hurts, we wouldn't know how much it may hurt, but for everything that happens, it happens for a reason, it teaches us a lesson.

Soon

Recently, have been into facebook and twitter very frequently, and what I've came to realize is most of the pictures that "we" uploaded as profile picture are always pictures with joy, happiness, smiley faces but never a picture with sorrow, never a sadden one, even me; myself. It's simply like one who's trying to hide feelings, sorrows from the world.

Currently listening to "soon- hillsong united"

Soon and very soon
My King is coming
Robed in righteousness
And crowned with love
When I see Him, I shall be made like Him
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
I'll be going to the place He has prepared for me
Then my sin erased, my shame forgotten
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
See the procession
The angels and the elders round the throne
At His feet I'll lay
My crowns, my worship
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Though I have not seen Him
My heart knows Him well
Jesus Christ the Lamb, the Lord of heaven

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon
Soon and very soon
Soon and very soon

I just gonna say, God always use different ways to comfort, to prepare us for a harder task, prepare us for the battle. My mum who is now feeling confused, insecure, really need prayers, most importantly, she needs salvation. My mum went to Singapore to get a third opinion and had confirmed that it's lung cancer. She had just did chemotherapy in Singapore and on their way back to Malaysia. I believe y'all will definitely shock by what am telling now what am encountering now. This is really a hard time for my family, a trial for each member of my family. We cry, we pray, we do everything else that we can do, try our best to do what we can and spend time with the family. Everyone faces trials, most importantly is how we encounter them, how we gonna fight the battle. I trust my God our Father, He has bring us to the world, well He surely will bring us back with Him, He has a reason for everything and all of us belong to Him. I wouldn't blame what's happening now to my family but I will put Him in the picture, in the whole structure of life. 

Soon.

Loves.

Pray.

I don't know what's on my head, what's spinning around, what's on my mind, literally. I don't know what am I supposed to do, what else I can actually do. Listening to "take all of me- hillsong united" and one of the phrases "  I love you, all of my hope is in you, Jesus Christ take my life take all of me." What am facing now is putting me in a really heavy-hearted moment, sometimes I may think why it wasn't me why not take me instead, they need salvation, they're in need, they need You; but I do not ponder, I know You will have better plans for my family and I, I always know that You will have better plans for us, why do I still weep, cry, sorrow. Had watched a movie tonight "Just go with it", it wasn't a bad show but well through this show it took me one and a half hour to think, to really think what's next, what's more to come, thinking how's mom thinking what's gonna happen next, and eyes were in tears. I was totally black out, broke down, fear, need so a lot of comforts, need someone to talk to, to encourage, to give a big huge hug. No one knows how am feeling now, but I as well wouldn't know how exactly my mom's feeling right now, burden, fear, confuse, depress, stress. I know God is eternity God is powerful God is loved God is able, therefore, I can do everything through Him who gives me strength, because all I need is You.

Let's continue to pray for my mom, let's pray for healing and salvation.

Pray for my dad, pray for peace and mercy, pray for salvation.

Pray for my brother, pray for salvation, pray for a softened heart.

Pray for both of my sisters, pray for understanding, pray that through Christ, they are strengthened.

Pray for Japan, pray for God's mercy, God is still in control.

Prayers.

loves.

Sneeze to the max :D

Again, have neglected this place. My last post I posted was in January, three months and now April :) Some even asked am I gonna stop blogging and delete it for good, but well NO. Yes, I've been going through a lot of things these months, going on hectic college days, no full-stop for tests and assignments, some things seem not too good in the family and there are just so a lot that you couldn't even imagine. 

So yeah now stories start.

Past few weeks ago "not too good" things started to come and yes it was on a Monday. On this particular Monday morning, I almost bang a car which had a sudden stop in front of me. Next, it was so jam on the way to college and I went into the motor way ( true enough it was my fault ), I've gotten a summon from the most responsible police I've seen in my life. Reached college, stepped on chewing gum at the garden. In class, got called as refugee by not finishing my classwork, cruel thing I wasn't in the class and what makes you think I know there's supposed to have classwork to finish up? Oh well, and when I was to go home, my car spoiled! I couldn't open the car door both with car key and the controller, and lastly I found out that I did not off the car lights and hooray, I ran to the workshop asked for a jump-start. When I was half-way running, *storm* and rain came down! Lastly, yes did a successful jump-start to my car and my sister drove me back from coll just in case I bang car. Laugh-out loud lah I know it was really a bad day. BUT, thank God I'm still alive. 

Second one was I had gotten sick on the second day, sneeze for Idk around 100 times? :) and fever as well, went to a doctor. Few days later, it didn't turn well and went to a doctor for a second time. One day after, asthma attack and admitted to the hospital on Saturday night at KPJ for hours and they suspected me to be H1N1 or dengue, whew thank God I wasn't after testing blood and ended up I went home. Skipped church on Sunday and I was thought that I'm already fine. Well, admitted to glen eagles on Sunday afternoon causing by asthma attack and after I did my check-ups and stuffs, the doctor found out that it wasn't an asthma attack instead, it was bronchitis and that's way my ventilate puff wasn't helping. Well being discharged on Wednesday. Gonna give a big huge hug to my friends who had surprised me in the hospital and to those who visited me when I was about to die from boredom. Hehe :)

So happening, after I got discharged from glen eagles, my mom health report was out and it wasn't a good one. For few days my mom was in the hospital doing A LOT of check-ups which I can see my mom was really in pain. To be true, my mom needs prayers, we really need prayers, she has gotten a really bad disease which my family couldn't really take it. For now, we looked fine but from the inside I know everyone's hurting. Prayers are powerful this is what I really trusted and trusting that God can do miracle, He has the ability to do everything, literally. So let's keep my mom and my family in prayers, pray for miracles to happen, pray for grace and mercy, pray for peace in my mom.

Although that many things seem not really good, hair-wire here and there, but there are still things to praise God for. You would never know how God has encouraged me these days, His prayers are truly powerful, He never fails us and this is true. He sent his people to encourage to comfort me. Thanks to my relatives to my loved one to my college mates to my church members to pastors and leaders, thanks a lot. Well, I believe that everyone has problems everyone has bad times so do I. So let's keep praising God, keep the faith.

 

Prayers are really needed.

Thanks loves! :)

 

Done. 

Things are unpredictable.

People :D,

what's the word "unpredictable" meant by? (:

I googled, it means not capable of being foretold, not occurring at expected times.

Not sure what strikes on my mind but somehow, a kinda feeling to blog to write about simply a thing or two.

Sometimes, things happen to be unpredictable in good ways might as well as bad ways. What we've always been saying " whoa, never thought of it loh!" " wah, how come?", meeting an old friend who have not been seeing each other for ages, pass your exams which you think you'll fail, a friend of yours went into an accident, one of your friend get married and etc. This is what called unpredictable I guess :) 

I've been really struggling with what I'll have for my pre-uni, what kinda course I'll be taking, what uni I'll be going, which is a lot, you see. Yes, will have my final exams in two weeks time. Everything has been going not too good these weeks and "stress" is definitely getting on me, I need prayers.

Still then, God has been putting a lot more efforts on me these weeks which I can em see? Yes, it's my time with God now, family has been really a great blessing for me. And sometimes, you might as well question " why is it God so awesome?" " Even human can multi- tasking already, so what about God?" " why things get so hard at times, why God? " A lot of us seem to be very selfish, we question, but we never want to answer, we sometimes will never thank God for little things like " thank God for the parking, thank God for the food, thank God for giving me a safe and mercy journey" we complain for what we don't have but we will never thank God for what we have.

Now, I would rather say, God is unpredictable! :) He knows our path because He came before us.

Things happen unpredictably because God is unpredictable. Therefore, don't ever try to predict God and we shouldn't worry and predict what we will have for the next second next day next year, ever since God has already planned for us! :) 

LOVES,

Lixuan.

Mind Refreshment.

"A real new relationship can only build when you love her/ him wholeheartedly without betraying. "

Mind Refreshment' 10.

Sunday/ 03.01.10

♥♥♥

I MISS YOU BABES DEARLY!! ♥

I am always missing this two lil chickkyyy friends! The very very best friend EVER!!

chubby HWA & sexy YING

Don't worry darlings! I am doing well here.

WE WILL BE MEETING VERY SOON ♥

WE LOVE US. the adorable ones

Continue.

Should I or should I not? In this early morning and moment like this, shall I write it more about yesterday and something similar and then?

It's just somehow our earth is the only thing makes us worry the most! Ain't it?

Is that nowadays are just too much of sins and had already overflew and we will exact to be taken up or down anyhow? In what authority should we claim this world as?

Listening to the song "mighty to save" by Hillsong United.

Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me

Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations

Chorus;
Savior he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again

I give my life to follow
Everything i believe in
Now i surrender

Savior he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

Savior he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

Shine your light and let the whole world see
Were singing for the glory of the risen king Jesus

Savior he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

It has probably touched one heart this morning. The judgment day, the rapture is coming soon or sooner, we never know when but at least we are ready for it to come! For those who are not, we should pray that He will be to judge and appear to give any second chances for everyone who not yet to know.

Human is equally to be selfish anyway, like one said "watch people die better than people watch me die lahh!" or " I thought it happens to die all but still a few left! Aiyahh" either. Don't you feel a little sour with it? Where's the maturity of ones? We are the victors but not the victims, we should love our neighbours as ourselves, love others like how God loves us! Where's all these? But still then, even me, I argued with sister and I just sometimes refuse to give any of the forgiveness! Cause they are just too much for me! I can't really get rid with these! Please give me a deep breath. And too forgive me for my jealousy D:

My previous post about the show 2012, it's not bad at all, it makes us worry and then to care and love our friends and families even more BUT only on that day I guess? It tells us to appreciate things we have and people we loved.

I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.

John 18: 23

These are just what I am grasping and they are not the exact for some of you and they never determined with true or false neither.

Be unto Him; the Victory.

2012

It's nearly 2.30 in the morning, and something just can't get off my mind while I was lying on the bed for just few hours since it was 12a.m. Well, was reading blogs randomly before I was going to bed and I intended to update my blog by tomorrow, but the movie 2012 appeared once and two into my mind. Nothing insulting me, but thinking of the inwards fear that everyone does have after this show 2012.

I was bringing out this small little topic to my dad about the end times after the movie we had and he seems to be a little of fear with it as he said he doesn't want to think it further more, we were still there to chat a little though. Somehow end times are chaotic!

Moreover, the movie seems so real with our high tech movie makers and sorts! The flood, the buildings fell, the cracks! Now and then, the topic meant by "End times" is getting more famous in the world! Have we get ready for it to come? This somehow could be annoyance for some of them as in they confidently appear to you and said it wouldn't happen! In the movie 2012, it didn't clearly appeared any of the religious or persisted it even. Does this actually makes one wonder about his/ her religion or do they actually need this?

The movie seriously may caused much of the interaction throughout years! Is this a good show? From the outward of the entire movie, it's pretty nice! But throughout the movie of all, it's too much for me. Still then 2012 is now the famous and worth show to watch indeed.

However, it's nice! But I love revelation better. (: In between them, they are slightly different but still we refer more onto bible which emphasised the same thing about end times.

Anyhow, it's 3 in the morning now and then I should really turn my lights off :)

Goodnight and sweet dreams.

Ciaoss__/ LOVE.

Stay up New Moon for next! :D 

 

I Love today.

Well, I love today :) In such sudden, I just love today.

During this holidays, I was not doing anything but watching some shows and movies even walked around without any indeed. Is somekind of aimless anyway, but still I proclaim they are great. After surfing, watching and doing, I made myself a cup of coffee, not the one in starbucks nor rome or even any branded ones. But, could it says that a miracle, it tasted great. :) 

I try to keep myself in mind to enjoy days I'm going, it really works. Can you imagine how nice it was? Like this, I was holding a cup of coffee, walking around garden keeping the moist atmosphere, listening to the song in my blog with lappie, it is amazed. :]

Thought of showing some pictures that I've taken while I was boring in the office. Pictures can upload later or other days, but feelings never ever get to wait.

Flashed back the great times that I was having with loved one, I smiled. They are sweet, but no more [: Things would change, people would change, lives would change, mind would even change more. It's depends on the angle you view something on. I feel happier to see my loved one to get someone he loves more, all things may be worth than any. (: Don't you? 

Changing is something everyone would face, how you change into is another. I do need a change. Make life easier, better and happier. Someone says that I'm such a wise and holy bla bla lalala, but I'm not. I'm not the goodest meant by perfect, I'm just trying to be. :)

If you're my sister, you will know how bad I AM! Hahh :D I'm too comfortable with families now and then I'm spoilt. It's real. Asking for a change into me, but not others.

Its time to say BYE :D

Ciaous__/ LOVE. 

Part of feelings? :)

Ahm, I've got time with a little short post. I feel that I'm actually not honest enough to tell out what's really going on in days and times.♥

Nothing drag my mood down, nothing fling my happiness away, I'm just little desperate right now with things, even the little things.

What thing goes big and screwed my head off? I think this is it. I feel embarrass when I read my buddy's blog which she's honest enough on writing out her stuffs and even the hashhy things. She never keep her intentions to herself but with others. Maybe I insisted myself from telling the bad things? I prefer write about the goods rather than bads, almost everyone does this rightt?? ♥ 

Apparently, I'm showing and dragging my mood lower & lower instead? I'm pretty sad and I don't feel like doing work, I'm lazy of doing but I always take my way into thinking stuffs negatively? D: Maybe I am sometimes.

I still prefer cheese, choco & ice-cream ♥  They melted my heart; sweetness I had.

Guys, I meant much in this post, I wish You'd know what am thinking.

Instead of a happy smile: I got a Laugh too :)

I need things which make me easier.

Ciaoss pals :) Is just part of feelings.

Emotions I have:

♥ - :) - :D - ): - D: - D': - XD - ♥  

hlgthighi ym tops dna oyu liwl ese sgnmetoih < For my closest friends :)

I need You, Father ♥

It's just a little of pain, a little of emptiness. ♥
as just like a butterfly which couldn't get her way back home.

hmm ;) im still awake.
i was looking at some pictures that my parents taken at overseas. And i love this. It brings me somekind of feeling over the clouds, when i was listening to "forever by hillsong united". [ im still listening to this ;D]
i meant maybe im well being in imagination, but then i sense something really rejoicing upthere. Though that there's still sins down here, but then angels still rejoicing upthere. how great if i could be part of them.
just past few days, there was a scene that looked so nice, the clouds that in reddish and nicely and completely when i was in my school during class. After class, i stand out to the balcony and i can really looked at it for minutes, hour. And woah i was asking God " are you smiling at me?" i mean, why am asking this that time. :)
what could i say, i was like rejoicing with God. i dont understand.

i dont mind :D but it takes me few hours to think about whats actually happened to me. And now....i still dont understand LA!
i mean, sometimes i really ask God why dont He come now.Maybe im selfish? im not.
He comes now or later isit the same? doesnt it?
He will give everyone the second chance, whether they believe in Him anot. isit? i think so?
and when the time He comes, there's the time we unite.

im here`__await for you Lord :)
draw me closer to you, that i can glorified Your Name.

hey guys. thats only my thoughts.
God Bless` x))

"cut hair d__`❤ it takes time to grow__ I take time to recover." ❤

just a phrase, but it meant what i think (:

`__ my thoughts.

hey, this is for you``
it's not your fault, no matter in what or anyway.
and you don't have to be sorry.

sometimes, just feel like what i wrote to you in that letter, that's how i feel.
I don't meant to ask for helps, but i cant get to know what should i do for now, which part shall I focus on more.
maybe what he said could be right, that I'm actually do what you planned? hm..
you know what happened to me today, and you asked me why. You knew the answer quite while early right, aint you?

I've tried my best, and maybe I'm really true on doing all sorts by myself alone and I wasn't throwing those jobs to anyone[ the new ones].. But it's just maybe.

I've lost of trust. D:
and you don't meant to say sorry` but I know that we'll gonna be fine & I'm well ok. sorry.

was frustrating with her studies & tough life`

it takes time to recover``

however, Lord watches over her, and no one could harm her.

she loves God. :)